Back to my 20s.
I just want to meet myself.
That little Sahiba.
Sad, heartbroken, but still full of life.
The one who used to smile a lot and make others laugh, even when she was not okay herself.
She was hopeful, cheerful.
Even after the failure.
I would tell her this.
You are going to lose a lot more in the future.
You will lose people.
People you love.
People you will love.
Friends.
Family.
People you believe will always be there for you and support you.
You will lose them too.
So get ready.
Make your mind strong.
There will be a time when you lose yourself for a while.
You will feel confused.
Tired.
Lost.
But one thing will happen for sure.
You will become stronger than before.
Much stronger.
One day you will look back and feel proud of yourself.
Proud that you stood up for your own wishes.
Proud that you chose yourself.
You will be calmer.
More aware.
And yes things will get worse sometimes.
But I guess it will be for good.